So today a dear friend of mine posted a challenge on her Facebook status and it went something like this…
I challenge all of you to post the things you are thankful for – each day in November – leading up to Thanksgiving Day. Given the events of the past few days across the East Coast; given the problems that our country faces in these horrific economic times; given the trials that others have faced with illness and death, etc. I look forward to reading your posts.
So I’m taking the challenge!!! It’s a challenge I embrace because I have so much to be thankful for. Even all the trials and tribulations I have gone through I am so thankful for them all because they have made me stronger but more importantly have made my relationship with God so much more stronger.
Today I am Thankful for… The still small voice of my savior!
And he said, Go forth, and stand upon the mount before the Lord. And, behold, the Lord passed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and brake in pieces the rocks before the Lord; but the Lord was not in the wind: and after the wind an earthquake; but the Lord was not in the earthquake: And after the earthquake a fire; but the Lord was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice. ~ 1 Kings 19:11-13
It was October 2000 and I was living in Panama City Beach, FL. I was sitting out on the porch in the morning and there was a cool breeze, the smell of the ocean (I was only 1/2 a mile from the beautiful Gulf of Mexico) and so many thoughts running through my head. I didn’t know what to do. I was in a relationship that I knew was not of God, I wanted out but due to some serious mental abuse I was scared for the lives of myself and children.
I was so depressed, felt so alone and was too proud to ask anyone for help. You know that saying, “You’ve made your bed now lie in it?” I felt like I had made the mess that I was living in so I was the one that needed to clean it up.
Only problem was I didn’t know how.
Mind you, I had accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior when I was 14 yrs. old but I had walked away for a season because I felt like my life was mine and some guy in the sky was not going to tell me what I could or couldn’t do. I can laugh at this now because I know who holds my life in his hands.
This particular morning while running all the scenarios through my head I just simply said quietly, “Please help me God because I honestly don’t know what to do.”
Then I heard it…a whisper in my left ear saying, “It’s time for you to come back home!”
I knew who it was, there was not a doubt in my mind. But it was the first and only time (so far) that I actually audibly heard the voice of the Lord.
In that second I knew he was calling me back to him and boy did I go running back with full steam ahead.
I ended the relationship I was in, got involved in a local church, dove into the living word of God, surrounded myself with people who had the same beliefs and have never looked back.
Sure the struggles have been MANY and the blows have been HARD but God never promised is would be easy.
As a matter of face he said,
I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world. ~ John 16:33
I have to be honest, I had this fairy tale vision in my head that once I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior then Satan couldn’t touch me anymore. I was safe from all the bad stuff that happens to everyone else. All I would have to do is call on the name of Jesus and like a Genie he would make everything better.
LOL Go ahead you can laugh with me. There are lots of us that thought that very same thing.
I did call on him A LOT! And even though some of the biggest storms in my life he didn’t calm or take away, he has taught me that I can have a peace that goes beyond all understanding during the storm, if only I would trust him.
I’m still growing…I’m still learning…I’m still struggling…I’m still seeking…I’m still knocking…I’m still standing!
There truly is no greater love than Adonai’s (our Father) love for us.
Have you given your life to Christ? If so, what was your experience? I’d love to hear about it. I’m continually amazing at how he speaks to each of us on our own level and right where we are in our life.
If you have not accepted Jesus as your Lord and Savior and you’re feeling the tug on your heart and you know something is missing in your life then simply say this salvation prayer.